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Monday, July 13th, 2009
2:07 am	New Blog Hey for all you non-prudes on my old friends list, I started collecting various nekkie pictures about a year or so ago, erotica, nude art, and straight up pornography(the rare good stuff) and I'd been sending them out to a few interested friends, with things about them that i liked, could be the model, pose, setting, a prop, the lighting, filters, or the whole damn thing. Basically this is me sort of teaching myself some basics of that genre of photography, so that when I finally get around to purchasing a decent DSLR, and also find pretty ladies willing to take clothes off on camera, I'll be a novice, but a novice with ideas! Anyway, I'm putting them on the internets to share with people, currently catching up my collection(I post from oldest to newest finds) and have a few hundred to go... but I don't have many readers yet, and feedback/submissions are definitely welcome and wanted! If you like it, tell your friends! :-) morethanjustaphoto.blogspot.com (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2009
4:06 pm	Ew Ew The Decemberists just came up on shuffle on my ipod. How the hell did that get on there? Damn you Scrubs Soundtrack!!!! *shudders* (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 29th, 2008
12:28 pm	I downloaded the Scrubs Soundtracks, one of the songs that came up was by the Decemberists. The music itself is fine, probably the lyrics too if I could understand what the hell they're saying, but I swear that mans voice grates at my spine with rusty nails. It wasn't even particularly nasal a song for him, but eugh either way that band just will never be loved by Drue. Ironic because Diana got a quote of theirs tattooed on her side (it's a sort of nonsensicle quote) and it got tonsss of attention on ihearttattoos although the sideboob might have helped. Hooray for being bitter. SEE this is why Im supposed to be abandoning this LJ, so I can get a clean start on Nonoxynol_nine without Diana entries. *shakes head* Current Music: The Decemberists- The Crane Wife (Comment on this)
2:58 am	Fucking Christ I have ended things completely with Diana, fighting myself the whole time along, hoping for some stupid romantic movie ending where everything fixed itself. It's just not there. Fucking hardest shit I've ever gone though, emotionally, I don't know about everything else. She's blocked pretty much everywhere. God it sucks. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2008
6:26 pm	I miss her, and it feels like Im the only one of the two of us. (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 6th, 2008
5:18 pm	iPod Woes So I went to the Apple Store. If I want it repaired it will cost me anywhere between 50 and 150 dollars, which I can't afford. And that's only like 50 bucks short of just getting a refurbished iPod classic, the new generation. Which would have 20 extra gigs, although if I were to spend that much, I might as well get the 160 gig which is more expensive of course, but proportionate to it's size, a better deal. But of course, I can't afford that either. The guy also looked up it's info, and the warranty ran out on February 12th of this year. What a horribly, horribly ironic date. Fuck Thursday, maybe Friday will be better. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: NO DAMN MUSIC (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 4th, 2008
3:04 pm	Yeah Well! I think I might start writing soon, something vaguely resembling using part of my brain NOT associated with instant messaging. Like using capital letters and punctuation. In case you're wondering, I am not actually on livejournal.com, I'm typing this on Semagic, so at least I can avoid temptation of reading my friends page and all that crap. (I know, I know, I lasted barely 2 days, but in some form I am making an effort to avoid much of "teh internets") I also felt like complaining, as I am apt to do(I've had so much practice!) I got my phone bill from last month. TWO HUNDRED DOLLARS in fucking overage charges. And of course if they hadn't changed their stupid format online I'd still be able to check my minutes easily and have stopped after at least the first hundred dollars. Soooo that's awesome. I have a pink mohawk, although it's pretty much only straight on the front/top area, I've received reports from people who can actually see the back of my head that it's so curvy it looks like I was attempting a question mark. Soooooo I think it's just going to be a top of the head mohawk and I'll have someone assist me in shaving all but a back middle strip, to kind of sow the seeds of the mohawk extension to the back of my head. Also I got a new bottle of pink dye in the mail, so I'll be able to have some better color. Any suggestions for a topic to write about in my extremely malnourished and neglected exposedbrain? A poltical, philisophical, societal, taboo subject matters would be good areas to start with... Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Ugly Casanova - Ice on the Sheets (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 3rd, 2008
11:19 am	My iPod broke today. A matter of weeks, if even that, after the 1-year warranty expired. Less than 24 hours after the girl that gave it to me, stopped talking to me. I just felt like going on the internets and telling... nobody man the internets are stupid (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 2nd, 2008
2:56 pm	I'm leaving I'm going to be avoiding the internet for a while. asides from checking messages if I receive notification of them, or emails.. but pretty much I just feel too incredibly awful right now to feel like I want to communicate with anyone right now I'm sorry. I just need to go.
2:54 pm	I just want to curl up and sleep. And when I wake up, it's all just been a dream. (Comment on this)
Friday, February 29th, 2008
6:34 pm	There are these little old people that just kind of hang out on street corners, either leaning on a cane or sitting in a little motorized wheelchair. And they just sit there, all day and wave at people going by. It's very cute. I wonder how many people wave back. The fauxhawk is pink, I only had enough to dye that part, so I have a pink stripe down the middle of my head, with blond on the sides and back. More pink dye is in the mail. I was having a discussion with a good friend/ex girlfriend of mine, and our discussion gave me some good perspective, and I've come to a conclusion I think is genuine and not just me fooling myself. I might be miserable, but that doesn't mean I'm not happy. Anger, stress, depression; none of those can change that.(that semicolon felt right, no idea if that's how to use one...) Joy is fleeting, I don't have it much these days, I know my soul hungers from it, loneliness is another difficulty I deal with. Even with all of that, even with a broken heart or yearning to be loved like I once was. I can't submit myself to unhappiness, even with as little joy or security in my life as I have now. Try as I might, I can't change the past, all I can is hope to bring joy to others, limit the anger and sadness I cause them, and myself, and make my own impact on the world, hopefully in a positive way. Plus, having pink hair just feels good(I swear, it's softer now that it's pink) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
9:47 pm	fuck it I have a bit of a blond tuft at the top of my head in the form of a fauxhawk I got a haircut so most of the grown out roots were exposed to only the longer hair on top remained blond. So yeah I have a little bit of pink hair dye, and I'm going to use it. I havent had any pink hair for two years, and that was mostly orange with pink highlights. I think I need this. Just something to make me feel better about being me. Soon to come within the next week or two. A hawk with a mo where the faux used to be. Havent decided its color scheme yet. Current Mood: depressed (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
3:31 am	well! that was an uneventful week (Comment on this)
Monday, January 28th, 2008
7:24 am	I wont be online for the next week, if you don't already know how to contact me otherwise... don't wait up! (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 27th, 2008
3:23 pm	One of my favorite things about riding a motorcycle is when you pass another biker going in the opposite direction, we both wave or nod or acknowledge each other somehow. That's nice. People don't even do that on the street most of the damn time. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 25th, 2008
11:52 am	wow, awesome I officially feel like crap damn speakerphone to hell (Comment on this)
10:35 am	Raleigh, NC is the best city for men in 2008, calculated from low death rates from heart disease and cancer, a high standard of living, low crime rates, job growth and air quality. Sioux Falls has the cleanest air, Seattle has the largest group of educated people, Anchorage has the fittest men. People in Charleston(not sure if it's SC or WV) are the most sedentary, and men in St Petersburg are the most fat. the top 10 are Raleigh, San Jose, Madison, Boise, SLC, Fargo, Austin, Seattle, Anchorage, and Honolulu in that order. This is Drue, your guide to the worrrld of facts! (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 24th, 2008
7:01 am	Starting Monday I will be taking a week off from the internet. Asides from accessing email and the database for work, downloading TV shows and movies(illegally, of course) and looking up directions should I need them for work, I won't be online actively. No random browsing of the internet, no chatting, no StumbleUpon, no video games. I am wasting too much of my time sitting in front of this... somewhat expensive computer, using up way too much of my days. It's sapping my energy, keeping me up too late, and making me rather uninteresting. I made a promise to myself that I would work out, and I will do it, more than I am now, which has been good, but I havent been pushing myself enough. I need to push my eating habits, and my water intake, and try to push myself to two workouts a day, 5-6 days a week. The internet isnt helping. Writing long entries on livejournal that only one person can read, in the middle of the night, forsaking sleep, isnt helping. Staying online hoping a specific person will sign on, isnt helping. Moping about sitting in my poor couch with its broken strings(looking for a new one, finally) isnt helping. I need help. So I'm going to try and help myself and get my life moving. Much love to the people who read this and care. Drue. (Comment on this)
6:27 am	Durham, NC is the least dangerously drunk city in the United States out of the 100(biggest, I'm assuming) cities in this country taking into account Alcohol related liver disease, DUIs, State efforts to cut down on excessive drinking, and fatal accidents involving intoxicated motorists woo! We're #1 baby! A+! We even beat Salt Lake City, haha NYC is 8th with an A rating, Boston is 19th with a B, Raleigh is also a B at 24, Orlando has a C+ at number 35, Detroit has a C+ as well at number 43, Vegas is only a C at number 47, not as bad as I would have assumed(I guess if you drink in your hotel, you arent driving anywhere), my hometown of Fort Wayne, Indiana got a C- at number 60, closely followed by Chicago with a D+ at number 62 after that LA, Dallas, San Diego, and San Francisco are all a D or worse, with Denver being the worst F on the list ouch (Comment on this)
4:04 am	I can't feel my toes! (Comment on this)